jesus f**king christ

i never realized how much i missed 13 but by far she was my favorite part of this episode. yaz mention in big 2025 is crazy

i also think the scene where the doctor and belinda gradually casually forget about poppy, accentuated by poppy’s coat getting smaller and smaller until it finally just disappears, was uncharacteristically well done, a properly tragic and dread-inducing scene. i have now finished praising this episode

first doctor to die by suicide, purely so belinda can remain forever a single mother living with her parents in a reality completely different to the one she originally came from with zero idea of what her life was really like. #wholesome i literally f**king hate this so much. and if i said worst companion exit of all time

i never properly bought 15. he’s a good actor but what was he ever supposed to do with any of the material he was given. he never had a chance to BECOME dr who. give him an occasional gravitas-laden speech, make him quirky and silly and wacky and crazyyy, we got all that but we never got that moment where the actor actually becomes dr who, and now that he’s gone it all just feels like a wash. i don’t hate the idea of billie piper as the doctor though! i will always prefer a new face for the doctor rather than an old one, but i also feel generally more forgiving to the idea of the doctor taking a companion’s face rather than taking their own again (still not over “fourteen” sorry). very much stunt casting and yet another disheartening symptom of rtd being unable to look anywhere but the past, but i think she absolutely has what it takes for the role - if she really even is the doctor. i’m absolutely #befuddled at why the screen shattered during the doctor’s first??? regeneration scene? and then he woke up in belinda’s f**king nightmare hell world? and then joy to the world and then billie piper????? and then the credits, well, credit, ncuti gatwa as the doctor, jodie whittaker as the doctor, and “introducing billie piper”????? AS???? AS FUCKING WHO????? DOCTOR FUCKING WHO???? and as curious as i am about all this, i also really don’t want to care. the prospect of these lingering questions being answered a year or two from now does not excite me nearly as much as just another fresh start would. i cannot wait for rtd to go

doctor who in its current incarnation is defined by nothing more than hype moments and aura, completely devoid of anything resembling substance or respect for the audience or even itself. it doesn’t seem to think itself capable of great things anymore, and that’s just soul-crushing to see as a fan. we got heaven sent ten years ago. we got the doctor falls eight years ago. what the f**k is the point anymore. if the show itself refuses to care, why the f**k should we. but i do. but why do i have to?