New Who Review #128

Heaven Sent

This story was amazing. It captured the feeling of Grief & Death itself within 50 minutes. This is one of the greatest pieces of doctor who ever and it works so well with capaldi. Having an episode centred around grief and sadness of losing your loved one is so touching and so relatable to me. I lost my dad in 2022 and it still hurts even now, I still feel the pain now the same if not worse than I did back then so I'm gonna run you over what I got from this story and why it touched me so personally.

The constant looping. When you lose someone you expect that you will be sad for a long time and while that is very true there is way more to it. You will loop every day after day after day after day the same as the last. You will do everything the same and fall into a deep dark pit of grief and it takes a long long time to get out of It. Just like it took the doctor 2 Billion years to break through his grief. Breaking the wall of grief and despair can take a while and it took me until 2024 to fully accept and break out of my grief. I like how they translate this over into an episode of doctor who and show the process of grief because like I said its very touching.

The constant talking to yourself. When I lost my dad I kept talking away to myself like he was still here. Replying with reply's that I knew he would reply with I fell into a habit of it and I still do it even now. When I'm thinking of something or when im sad I always look up and chat to myself and picture that he is standing right in front of me answering back. Of course he's not and when I open my eyes he isn't there and it hurts. Much like the doctor when he realised that whatever he did clara will never be there again. When he realised that he almost gave up which is very true with grief, it's so easy to just give in and let it take over but you must fight it and win or else you will be stuck there for way longer.

The constant loneliness. When you lose someone another key factor is you feel isolated and alone. Even though you have family and friends there to comfort you you still feel empty and lost. You will wish they were still there with you and want it more than anything. A wish so hard that it hurts when you realise can't possibly come true. Which is why I think the constant loneliness of this episode feels so real and sad. It's not just a case of the doctor being trapped in his confession dial while yes that is the story there is more to it I feel. The loneliness also works as the empty void inside the doctor. The part of him that no one except clara can fill and that won't happen anymore because she's dead.

As you can see all these parts play a very crucial part in the episode as much as they do death itself. This episode is the closest thing to experiencing a death than actually experiencing a death. To me nothing else will come close to beating the pure and raw emotion of this story and for that it has gone down in doctor who history. Heck not even doctor who history but television history itself

The beauty of heaven Sent. 9/10

Ps: I realise this is more of an analysis than a review but it's a one off and I had so much to talk about. No more of my reviews will ever be this long so enjoy this longer review.